a few weeks ago i had a choice to make. a big one. the harvest is ready, the apples are falling, and it's time to start another cider making season. it's a passion project that allows me to be in nature a lot. my tent is in the orchard, and for a period of over six weeks i will be on and off to the east of the country to meet my inner farmer. i am learning about and connecting with the land. it's my way of living in nature part time for this moment in the year, and exploring

if you've been feeling disconnected from yourself, you're not alone. we often speak of being disconnected from our true nature, as if we’ve lost something we once had, as if there’s a place we need to return to. but what if the longing itself is the key? what if the distance we feel is not just a problem, but a necessary part of the journey? research in cognitive anthropology shows how deeply our environment shapes our perception. westerners, surrounded by rectangular rooms a

drive, it’s not just about ambition or achievement. it’s about the quiet, insistent whisper that reminds us we’re alive. that we won’t be forever. a friend of mine said, "you need more death in your life." at first, it sounded morbid. but the more i sat with it, the more it made sense. death isn’t just an ending—it’s the shadow that gives life its shape. it’s the reason we create, the reason we reach, the reason we refuse to settle for half-lived days. we don’t need to be afr

flying, i hate it to my bones. not in a rational way. in a deep, primal way—this metal tube is a death trap, and i am a fool for trusting physics. i try to borrow calm from the flight attendants. i recite statistics like a mantra: turbulence is just air. you are more likely to die in a car crash. my brain nods. my body stiff, my hands clinging to the armrests like they’re the last remnants of sanity. i’ve tried everything: closing my eyes, breathing exercises, meditation whi

in bodywork, we often travel through the memories our muscles and tissues hold—memories that go beyond what we consciously remember. when we learn to shift our attention away from the stories we tell ourselves, the conclusions we’ve drawn, we tap into unfiltered information. if you’ve experienced this for yourself, it’s undeniable: the body tells the truth. you feel it. from this deep awareness, we can understand the core of our habits, reactions, and behaviours. we begin to