life & choices

a few weeks ago i had a choice to make. a big one. the harvest is ready, the apples are falling, and it's time to start another cider making season. it's a passion project that allows me to be in nature a lot. my tent is in the orchard, and for a period of over six weeks i will be on and off to the east of the country to meet my inner farmer. i am learning about and connecting with the land. it's my way of living in nature part time for this moment in the year, and exploring

drive, it’s not just about ambition or achievement. it’s about the quiet, insistent whisper that reminds us we’re alive. that we won’t be forever. a friend of mine said, "you need more death in your life." at first, it sounded morbid. but the more i sat with it, the more it made sense. death isn’t just an ending—it’s the shadow that gives life its shape. it’s the reason we create, the reason we reach, the reason we refuse to settle for half-lived days. we don’t need to be afr